At The Peak Of Your JW Spirituality, Did You Ever Not Believe Something ? (page 2)

Vernon Williams

Drew,

Are you SURE you were walking in and out of a Kingdom Hall?

V

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I always felt like we were worshipping men and God at the same time.

I didn't believe that God would murder innocent children at Armegeddon, and would cringe, and shake my head in disagreement at the meeing. I didn't care who saw me.

I would cry at the stupid Watchtower study, feeling like I was never doing enough service.

I didn't think that putting in hours was at all what Jesus wanted. I stopped putting my actual service time from 1998. I believed that my service was to God, so God knew how many hours I put in for Him, I detested that men needed to know how much time I was putting in when I was in service for Jehober, and not for them. Yes, I was that delusional.

I paid little attention to the Daniel book. I hated the stupid dates. I thought they were a waste of time and brain energy.

I hated the disfellowshipping policy, I would smile kindly and sadly at the brother who was DF'd who sat at the back by himself, who was at every meeting. I wanted him to know that although I wasn't allowed to talk to him, I wasn't going to ignore him.

The revelation book was an embarrasment, I found it very hard to swallow when I was a teen, I loved the Draw Close to God book.

I thought the Young People Ask Book, and the articles in the Awake were a joke. I found them very unrealistic and extremely irritating and embarassing.

drew sagan

Drew,

Are you SURE you were walking in and out of a Kingdom Hall?

I know!

I became a JW with no family in the WTS. I also converted at the age of 17. At that age I simply couldn't bring myself to give up a good number of things like holidays. To do so would anger my parents, and I just didn't feel it was important enough to take a stand on it.

Because my life had actually been saved by blood plasma as a child I never became attached to the blood doctrine as well. My mother was quite vocal in saying that there was no way in hell that she would let me die because of not having a blood transfusion. How could I tell her no when it had already saved me once before?

If I had taken the stand the JWs wanted me to make my teenage years would have been a living hell. I wanted to show my parents that you could go to the kingdom hall and still have your own opinions. Boy was I wrong.

drew sagan

Also,

The first criticism I ever heard from JWs was that they break up families. My mother knew a girl who was a friend of their family when she was young. Both of her parents where Jews and had been saved by the Catholic Church in WWII. The Catholics brought them over to America and gave them a new life, so they where very loyal to the church because of this.

Well the girl eventually became a JW and walked away from her parents. My mother begged me never to let this religion destroy her family.

So all along I had to prove that JWs didn't break up families. Becoming a dire hard JW would have made things terrible.

The funny thing is that I was really at the 'peak' of my spirituality during all of this. I was a pioneer MS! I just kept my thoughts to myself and never really taught the things I didn't feel where important.

SnakesInTheTower

the whole "generation"/dates issue bothered me. I once told someone, "if they dont change this soon, they will get caught with their pants down", It took them 10 years to change it.

SnakesInTheTower (of the "Still bothered" Sheep Class)

minimus

When the Society was pushing for 1975 and it didn't happen, they produced a WT. stating that the end had to be here before the end of the 20th century. Bells went off in my head when I heard this. I couldn't believe they'd say that IN PRINT !! after all else failed.

Hortensia

well, I'm pretty lame, I guess. I never questioned anything. I dropped out because of serious depression. However, once I had some distance, I realized I never believed any of it, I was just learning the information and parroting it back without thinking about it much. Once I realized I never believed, I really relaxed - it felt so right.

minimus

For those that want to believe that they alone have the "Truth", it's very hard to not accept everything as being gospel. I believe that if you think the GB are specially chosen by God, then you will no doubt accept anything---even that which makes no sense.

Amber Rose

One prophecy in Daniel chapter 8, I think, was fulfilled by two watchtower articles. The number of days between the publication dates was the same number of days relating to two events in the prophecy. Does anybody else remember this? I thought that was absolutely rediculous. I didn't believe that 144,000 was a literal number. I also thought the title "Revelation - Its Grand Climax at Hand" was rather misleading. The bowls of wrath were something that some dumb guy said. Yeah, that's exciting.

undercover

Like a good dubbie, I figured whatever I couldn't understand, I'd wait on Jehovah.

I have to admit, that at my most "spiritual" (more like, most naive), I had the same attitude.

Even if it didn't make sense or I couldn't justify it, I would wait on Jehovah to make the light brighter.

At The Peak Of Your JW Spirituality, Did You Ever Not Believe Something ?

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