Thanks for all the replies, I appreciate so many people taking the time to offer a few words of encouragement.
It seems to me that from some of the other experiences that I have read that guilt and fear are tactics that are employed on those with doubts as opposed to genuine concern or love. This is not to say that some don't have real concern for individuals who have doubts, but from my personal experience with the elders I've talked with this month they made it seem as if doubts were a evil thing. But when it really comes down to it who would'nt have doubts if they found out their religion had a history of missing predictions and mis-interperting scriptures.