Yes it's past midnight and I'm getting melancholy and starting to rehash my life of late. Melancholy yes, but I haven't hit the bottle yet so its not alcoholly.
Seriously though, I thought I'd offer an apology. I feel like I've come to the board, which has been very welcoming, and been more concerned with me, myself and I then helping out others and I'd like to apologise for that. I wonder sometimes if it's because I was in the borg so long and trying to please everyone else that now I am free I'm very self involved, which is an idea that is rather repugnent to me. I tend to be very anti-watchtower but feel that maybe I am more joining threads and adding my story to someone elses. Does that make sense?
I do appreciate the help I've been given and I will try to post more correctly, well what i mean by correctly is not ranting on about my life as the only form of posting I do.
In a weird way I just feel very disconnected with life. Thankfully I do have an anchor with my daughter and fiance. I just feel like I am trying to rejoin the human race, stay in touch with friends, stop being so concerned with me and reach outwards to others.