by DeusMauzzim 32 Replies latest jw friends
You have reached a road sign;
You have changed directions - but there is a lot to see and do in life. I was almost 30 years older than you when I figured it out.
Enjoy your youthful strength and vigor. Go see the Alps, get an education, find a nice gal to love and laugh with. Live, that's what life is for.
Jeff
Watch this:
You'll be good to go.
Dude,
I did not mean to be insensitive and after going back and reading your posts I realize that you have more wisdom at your age than I've been able to muster up in 47 years.
You're just having a bad day.
BFD
You guys are the greatest [[[all]]]
It comes and goes, I'm sure you understand. One day I'm over the top with happiness and the other day I'm just so sad...
Also it's not totally JW-related. When I was 6 or so I used to complain sometimes that it "stormed in my head".. not really good at stopping my thinking lol... like a rampant train.
Anyway, I'm picking my courses right now (uni begins in two weeks, no time to worry then), background music, it starts to get better ... like I said it comes and goes.
Thanks.. just for being there, giving advice and ROFL about my ramblings.. that helps!
- Deus Mauzzim
@BFD: no worry, sometimes you just need that!
Hey deus
if you don't mind me asking - what are you studying at uni?
I want to start a degree - the one that interests me is Politics, Philosophy and Economics - want to catch up with the world and I like studying.
G'day Deus Mauzzim,
What you describe resembles the effects of depression which leaves one with a simply awful feeling - as if your whole spirit has drained out, leaving you immobile, able to do nothing.
I hope, really hope, it doesn't come to that, but you have removed a very significant part of your life - the vacuum needs to be filled.
For countering depression, the medicos recommend being active in the outdoors etc etc much like our friend Jeff has recommended above - sounds a good start!
Also remember that, like Mulan has pointed out, some people wait all their lives to get to the point you're already at!
I hope that in time, you can really enjoy your walk along freedom's road.
Cheers, Ozzie
Deus - enjoy your life, you are young and have plenty of energy. You never stop learning no matter how small or insignificant, learn something new each day!
nj
You're probably just having a bad day. But if these days persist or happen regularly, and especially if they are accompanied by days when you seem "high", you may have a problem. You need to talk to your doctor about how you feel. Give specifics and tell him you've experienced these feelings since childhood.
I don't mean to scare you, but you are at an age when many psychiatric illnesses emerge. On the bright side, a lot of progress has been made and continues to be made to effectively treat these disorders.
Please, don't let fear or shame stop you from seeking help if your problems are not transient in nature.
You have your whole life ahead of you, don't let anything stand in your way of enjoying it fully.
changeling
Dear Deus
All you have lost is beliefs, which are nothing but thoughts and concepts in your mind. Reality has not changed, it is still here for you, and patiently waiting for your attention.
I suggest backpacking out in the wilderness for a few days. Get a genuine sense of the endless wonder and beauty of existence. Open to the intimate connections you have with nature and life. Shift awareness out of the minds labels, beliefs and interpritations, and into the actual senses of what it is to breath, to walk, to smell, to hear, to exist.
Silently and openly meet with Reality, and you'll be more than fine.
j
Hey Deus,
By UNI do you mean university or University of Northern Iowa? I'm asking because, UNI isn't a terrible distance from me, and I could introduce you to all kinds of social life. But college in general is a great place to meet friends that you'll have the rest of your life. I met most of my core group at college, then later a few more at work places.
Trust me, life is totally just starting at 19. And I know where you're coming from about your mind working OT, and sometimes seeming like a runaway train. I have to take meds, to keep mine under control, otherwise it gets out of hand and I can't even sleep. Honestly if you have that kind of restless thought and anxiety, tell your doctor, its worked wonders for me.
