GRRRR - Swollen Knuckles.

KW13

Recently i told you guys about my bipolar, well today i lost it big time.

Having an arguement with megans mum and in the middle of it, she says 'dont you feel ashamed not working and living off the state' and that 'bipolar wasnt an excuse really'.

Then a moment later cos i shot her down on that (since she doesnt know about bipolar) she says that if its so bad i should be f****** sectioned. At that point i said to her if she spoke another word it was likely my fist would end up in her mouth (just talk but i felt like it) and then i was pushed to far, so i hit the door. THE DOOR IS SOLID, i would like to confirm to everyone that this door does not have a soft center, i hit it so damn hard, i had to vent somehow - my knuckles are swollen.

The arguement ended and its dealt with, she said megan was making up claims of her stepdad abusing her now he is dead, because she wants her mum to love him less WTF?

Megan let her in on a few 'family secrets' she didnt know about and now mother in law went to bed feeling like the idiot she is; I really cannot believe how close to hitting her i came, i was so hurt for megan and angry for me too.

Dragonlady76

**dragonlady's husband speaking here**

I'm bipolar, and have been on meds. If you know you're bipolar, the only right thing to do is see a doctor, for your benefit and those around you. especially if you're doing things that you regret later.

unchecked and unmedicated, bipolar is a hard road, can lead to self-medication like alcohol or drugs, which can really make you cycle, and really do a number on your behavior. this is destructive, leading to problems with family, friends, marriage, job, finances, jail, drugs, alcohol, etc...

friendly advice- in addition to seeing a psychiatrist for meds, see a counselor also, since bipolar people almost always have "baggage" which also tends to make behavior destructive.

i hope you find the sense of peace that i have. be well...

KW13

Your advice was 100% spot on and appreciated, without sharing all of the arguement or my life lol, i've been to the doctor and i am in the process of dealing with everything from counselling, arranging medication and further solutions.

changeling

I'm glad you hit the wall and not a person, but you came close. That's not a good sign. See your doctor and get your meds checked ASAP.

changeling (bipolar too)

Mary

Well I'm glad you didn't hit her----or chances are you'd be in The Big House when Megan has the baby.

rebel8

Have you had your hand checked out? You might have a boxer's fracture.

BrentR

It might hurt like hell but it's cheaper then a therapist and takes much less time. I did the same thing last winter on a bathroom door. It was one of those weeks that I felt like every hole in body was being violated by someone around me. That is when my wife realized this would be a good time to stop pushing buttons.

I have never hit anyone but I am an expert at replacing doors and patching drywall.

KW13

I'm glad you hit the wall and not a person, but you came close. That's not a good sign. See your doctor and get your meds checked ASAP.
changeling (bipolar too)

i will be doing soon, just a lot happening at the moment - i know i shouldnt get this angry but its just a lot going on at the moment and were all tense, tired and waiting for noah. thanks for advice!

Well I'm glad you didn't hit her----or chances are you'd be in The Big House when Megan has the baby.

it sounds crazy but in that split second i made a choice, thankfully the right one eh? thanks mary, hope all is alright your end.
Have you had your hand checked out? You might have a boxer's fracture.
i dunno how bad that should be/feel? its stopped hurting unless i touch it, my knuckle and the rest is hidden with the swelling, should i be at the hospital? if so i'll go tomorrow cos at the moment no one can get me there and i cant get there ma'self.
It might hurt like hell but it's cheaper then a therapist and takes much less time. I did the same thing last winter on a bathroom door. It was one of those weeks that I felt like every hole in body was being violated by someone around me. That is when my wife realized this would be a good time to stop pushing buttons.
I have never hit anyone but I am an expert at replacing doors and patching drywall.
lmao, well thankfully our door is a really good door, so your services ain't required as of yet, and hopefully i wont be in this situation too much.

rebel8

http://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/boxers-fracture That's about all I know on the subject, but it's probably worth reading. You don't want to have your hand heal all knarly and twisted!

Here's a little trick I use when I feel like punching my MIL. I wear something with big pockets, and I just give her "The Finger" while my hand is in my pocket. This helps me maintain my composure outwardly. ;)

Do you have urgent care centers there? We have those here, useful for non-life-threatening situations when you need x-rays but don't feel like waiting in line at the hospital for 10 hours, behind all the people having heart attacks and strokes.

KW13

http://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/boxers-fracture That's about all I know on the subject, but it's probably worth reading. You don't want to have your hand heal all knarly and twisted!

Here's a little trick I use when I feel like punching my MIL. I wear something with big pockets, and I just give her "The Finger" while my hand is in my pocket. This helps me maintain my composure outwardly. ;)

Do you have urgent care centers there? We have those here, useful for non-life-threatening situations when you need x-rays but don't feel like waiting in line at the hospital for 10 hours, behind all the people having heart attacks and strokes.

lmao, i need something big in my pocket at all times then thanks! Care centers are in the City center unfortunately and i cant get there or the hospital till tomorrow cos stepdad wont see it as an emergency if i telephone him now (1am). Hospital is still a drive out and they have a long long long wait to be seen.

GRRRR - Swollen Knuckles.

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