This is related to the concept of freewill-- I believe we are always doing exactly what the true
nature of reality dictates. people as if you are not free, who is pulling your strings, the answer is no one. I am reality, but I did not make myself and so I had no hand in my true nature and thus no say in why it does what it does. I discover what I like and how much I like it and I dont chose it. When my desires clash, the one that wins is no more my choice than the one that lost, which is still my desire as well.
Knowing that I am GOD means having no one to blame. nothing to regret nor be afraid of either.... maintaining that GOD understanding is sometimes a challenge.