The ex and I were pioneers and Tuesday was a big FS day for us. We were on our way to the KH and I was listening to sports talk when the host said that there were reports of a plane that hit the WTC.
After the meeting for FS, one of the elders wives got a call to turn on the news. We did and heard about the jets. We instantly went to the elders home and saw what happened. Then the Pentagon got hit. We had relatives in Washington DC, they were about 15 minutes from the Pentagon. They said they only heard sirens but were so busy working that they didn't know what was going on at the Pentagon till just before 10:00
We "preached" all day long. Didn't offer a damn piece of damn literature (I am proud of that) and just talked with people. Then around 4, there was a mad rush to the gas stations. Gasoline shot up close to $2.00/gal. (ironic to think about those prices now....) All the gas stations were fined by the state that day...... Somehow, I didn't get my money back....
I cleaned banks for a living... (insert funny ex JW joke here) and kept the TV news on at every bank. I kept thinking about the Great Tribulation. I will never forget me catching myself, literally grasping for a breath when I allowed myself this thought. I will never forget it. "This is exactly what we (JW) are saying is going to happen during Armageddon." I was never the same. That thought literally started what became an avalanche of free thought. Of honest thought. It awakened me to the fact that I hadn't listened to myself. I told myself this too: "We (JW's) mourn these people now, but when Armageddon comes, we are going to be happy?" My "faith" was never the same.
Later I realized that I was more caught up in moving up the company ladder and trying to please my ex then anything having to do with religous faith. But that day shook me from my JW faith forever. Even if it took me years to leave, I was never the same, to which I am thankful.
I know people died by the thousands that day. I mourn and think of them every day. From that day forward, I felt connected to the human race. That was the day I didn't want people to die needlessly anymore. It's weird, because as a JW, I use to talk about the death of billions like it was no big deal. Then I saw 9/11, and I saw that it was. If there is a loving god, he isn't a JW....