So about a month ago, I finally "confessed" to my JW friend that my husband and I haven't been to a meeting since February. We're in different halls, so she wasn't aware of our inactivity. When I told her, I didn't explain any details about what lead us to stop going, other than the normal "we're confused- so much going on, new baby, etc" stuff. She seemed like she understood where I came from except towards the end of our conversation she pretty much said "well, you know where I stand" and I took that as her way of ending our friendship. Why? I don't know. I haven't done anything wrong- I didn't say anything that could raise flags about my disdain for the organization. Well, we haven't talked since and we never go this long without talking. We were really close friends- And *poof* she's gone. I'm actually going back and forth between being sad and angry. Like why doesn't she want to "encourage" me? Even though I want nothing to do with the Org. I'm just baffled that she just dropped me high and dry and I'm not even df'd or da'd.
I really want to call her- I know it's not going to get me anywhere, but I just want to say "hey what the heck is going on? I tell you I'm confused and in a rut and you drop me just like that?!"
*sigh* And my other friend is pregnant and due in 2 months (also a JW) and since I've confessed to my friend (above paragraph), I also haven't heard from her. In fact, I haven't heard from a single one of our "friends". Like we've been black listed.
I expect at some point that we won't be associating with them because we have no intention of going back, but man talk about slamming the door on us. And I'm not even invited to my friend's shower.
I can't just leave it like that, since I know it's going to be viewed as ME leaving them- even though my attempts at being their friends are futile and no matter what I do, being JW's they'll twist things-
I dont know-
I'm just frustrated. Any thoughts or suggestions?