The JW experience....is the soul ever healed?...A BIG RANT.

by restrangled 19 Replies latest jw friends

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  restrangled

  I just wrote about my life between 11 and 12......I am now 48 years old. It came back to me in huge drowning waves that I cannot describe. The anger, depression, humiliation....

  Do any of us ever get to recover totally? We get on, and then get to be called Apostates. .......

  You hear JW's say, "They are so angry and bitter.....full of hate, all looking to destroy Jehovah his organization and his people"

  Isn't this exactly what happened to those who did not want to be a part of it? Isn't this why we are all here?

  They all stink worse than a backed up septic system....and if you don't know what that is, come to Florida in mid summer....you'll never forget it!

  Thanks for listening. Tonight I feel angry as hell.

  r.
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  tall penguin

  I hear ya! Not sure the soul ever heals. It's been two years since I'm out and I'm still mindf**ked!!! Rant away my dear. You've earned it.
  
  tall penguin
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  JK666

  I think the soul heals, but the scar tissue is still there. All can be going fine, then you get zapped by seeing a JW, or a past memory. I guess we will be processing what happened for the rest of our lives.

  JK
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  restrangled

  Continued Rant....

  We don't get to opt out and assume we hold the same position in anyones heart such as: hey you are still a great friend, family member, son, daughter or whatever.

  OR: You are still close to my heart even though we are not part of the same party, I still love you, can you and yours come to dinner next week? Or, can you meet me for drinks on Friday, good friend?

  OR: I'll call you in a day or two to make plans.

  NOOOOOOOO. It's you have denied God, You have embarassed the family, you are in cahoots with the devil or fill in as you have been told.

  This why we all feel so angry. We can't decide for ourselves without being labled as sons of the Devil, haters of God, and the worst, Apostate. (The worst dirty word in the JW religion) FUC* ir more acceptable.

  r.
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  Hortensia

  yes, the soul heals. It just takes a while. Counselling helps. Exercise outside in the sunshine helps. Getting on with a new life helps. Making new friends helps. Ranting helps. Even just deciding to be happy helps.
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  helncon

  I think the soul heals, but the scar tissue is still there. All can be going fine, then you get zapped by seeing a JW, or a past memory. I guess we will be processing what happened for the rest of our lives.

  So true some times it can be a passing thought or memory that can get brought back.

  I have been out for about 13 years i have been ok with it for the majority of this time but until late last year when i found JWD and other issues had come about i was a mess again but it was a good mess as i was finally been able to put things into place and perspective.

  But ranting and venting here is good

  Helen
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  cultswatter

  Does Obves have a soul?
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  compound complex

  (((((((((((((((((((( restrangled ))))))))))))))))))))

  There are no words ...

  Love,

  CoCo
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  WTWizard

  I think it's impossible to totally make up the damage they do to your life. They steal your childhood, and that's something that is gone for good. You have memories of field circus in place of vacations, school extras of all kinds, and holiday and birthday parties. You do not go to college. Income potential is lost. The companies are set up so, unless you break in right out of high school and college, you cannot ever break in and you cannot set up your own company without having a zillion regulations that are designed to ruin new companies kick in (so much for "free enterprise"). Often it becomes impossible to have children because your biological clock ran out while you were waiting for that "new order" that didn't show up.

  Whether or not the programming from the Tower is totally reversed, they do irreparable damage in people's lives just by wasting their time. And for this, people are justifiably angry. This alone is reason enough for many to do apostasy, if only to spare others from losing their childhoods and abilities to get better jobs. And, as such, each person that is stopped from joining or that is released represents value reclaimed--those people are stopped from wasting further time on an organization that cares nothing about them.
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  RollerDave

  Yeah, I have thought about this quite a bit, and I think the answer is Fix A Flat.

  Oh, wait, that just "Seals Holes."

  Might not BE an answer.

  Yeah, I guess we can be a bit bitter, when you've been wrung out like a rag and discarded like a used prophylactic, lied first 'to' then 'about'.

  but, unlike them, we have some fun with it!

  RD