We had a disagreement a few months ago because she asked me to pay for her to come to see my brother graduate from his Masters program. Whats the big deal with that? She said that her conscience would allow her to come and give him support even though I was there. Since this was a family matter she believed that Jehovah would forgive her if she had to eat with me. Why would she have to eat with me? Because my brother wouldn't ask me to leave just so she'd feel comfortable. I told her that it was strange that her God would make excuses for her to do what it was that she wanted to do most. I know that she loves my brother more than she loves me. It's not a big deal. I just wanted her to know that I knew and that I forgave her for it. After her visit it has been about 5 months since we have spoken.
Our conversation yesterday was good. I apologized for the way I left the org. Not that I left but the way that I left. I just stopped talking to her. I was trying to protect her from what I was doing. (that would be knockin boots by the way). It was a cowardly of me to not confront my real reasons for leaving, my doubts and misgivings but using a human shield in my then girlfriend. It was theraputic to apologize. She said that she'd done the same thing to her mother and she could understand needing to find who it was that you are inside. The difference is that my mother kinda whored around and did loads of drugs. I'm pretty much the same 'cept for the long hair, beard and newly found sexual prowess in my serial monogomy. Any who. She is trying to get accepted for the international conventions for the 3rd time in a row. More power to her. I told her that she was welcome in my home at any time. I meant that. Live and let live. Perhaps we are getting closer to that...