((((Everyone who responded))))
Thank you all for your thoughts and for sharing them! Friday was a terrible day for me, as that conversation was the most emotional one I've had with my mom in a long time. I emailed an apology to her for upsetting her, but that I still stand by the points I made.
I really do feel like trying to reason with JW's is impossible. I think my mom feared me "going there" because my thoughts are "apostate" thoughts. She didn't want to hear them for fear of labeling me with that terrible label. I've always have had those thoughts, but never voiced to her or Dad. So now I am to the point that if they view me as apostate, then so be it. I cannot continue having a hypocritical relationship with them. As sad as my heart is at breaking contact with my family, I feel I must.
Mega - your points are true and have been taken to heart. I do not need to continue putting myself through this heartbreak by continuing to ask for a rational relationship from irrational people. It cannot be done. I guess I have forgotten some of the fundamentals of what I've learned in therapy!
I'll try not to be a mush-pot, but all of you have NO IDEA how much healing you've brought to my life. Having you to come to makes this pain so much easier. I sent an email explaining the story to my boyfriend and two of my closest girl friends, who have NO JW background. Although their responses were quick, loving, and had wonderful intentions, I know they didn't understand the way y'all do. I really appreciate you helping me!
With a grateful heart,
Andi