Slowly killing myself

by 5thGeneration 40 Replies latest jw friends

  • 5thGeneration
    5thGeneration

    Just got back from the doctor and he was alarmed at my liver function test. He sent me for an ultrasound of my liver and I'm being tested for hep.

    PROBLEM:

    My drinking way too much is because I have a hard time dealing with wanting to leave the 'truth' but can't. Family, friends, wife, kids...

    Who needs Armageddon? The Society will just kill us off right now!

    Any advice?

  • Shutterbug
    Shutterbug

    http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/en_information_aa.cfm

    On the other hand if you take time out from the WTS to take care of youself and to think things thru, I suspect things will be much better.

  • Sirona
    Sirona

    Drink never helps.

    Let me repeat that.

    Drink never helps.

    It just makes things worse, not better.

    What happens is that at first you have a really good reason to drink. Then you drink for any reason.

    The JW problem is not why you drink. It may have been the start, but it isn't the current reason.

    Please seek help - AA isnt for everyone but just seek something. Even something online. Personally I'm not sure how good AA is.

    Hugs and love to you

    Sirona

  • 5thGeneration
    5thGeneration

    Thanks Shutter,

    Ironic that I have thought of that but have been scared that the elders will find out and pounce on me and possibly form a JC.

    5th

    P.S. Funny how I can help other people with advice but can't figure out my own problems.

  • 5thGeneration
    5thGeneration

    Thanks Sirona!

  • purplesofa
  • purplesofa
    purplesofa

    • There is nothing in your past, in your genes, in your brain, or in your personality that compels you to drink or use. Using is voluntary, purposeful behavior.

    • The sole cause of your addiction is a voice in your head that tells you to “Do it!” in a thousand different ways. That is your Addictive Voice.

    • Personal problems don’t cause addiction; addiction causes your personal problems.

    • Self-improvement does not result in addiction recovery. Recovery leads to self-improvement.

    • You drink or use because you love to get high. Admit it!

    • The worst possible way to quit something you love is one-day-at-a-time.

    • Stay away from recovery groups of all kinds; you can’t possibly recover there. They’ll never let you go, and you’ll be “in recovery” forever.

    • Stay away from shrinks; most substance abuse counselors are members of recovery groups, unable to trust themselves without evening supervision. The rest have never been addicted, and can only guess at what addiction is and what to do about it.

    • Your physician can’t help you with your addiction; he may even be supporting it. Most refer to recovery groups, to which many of them belong. However, they do have good treatments for withdrawal, if you are in danger of seizures.

    • Consider that the real truth about addiction and recovery lies in the exact opposite of most popular beliefs.

    • Recall your original family values, the ideas about right and wrong you knew by the age of 5 or 6. Those are your foundation for addiction recovery.

    • Your beliefs about God are fine, whether you believe or not. Sound, sprititual growth may only follow AVRT-based recovery, when your thoughts are not biased by the mandate of addiction.

    • AVRT-based recovery is as difficult as you make it, and takes as long as you choose.

    • If you won’t trust yourself, why should anyone else?

  • Mr. Majestic
    Mr. Majestic

    I can’t advise you being that I have never been anywhere near where you are right now, but I must say that I really feel for you man.

  • 5thGeneration
    5thGeneration

    Purp

    Mr. M, Thanks!

  • new boy
    new boy

    Tell me about it....I was hitting the bottle before I left too.

    Self medicating.....I'm convinced if I stayed in I would be dead now....You just can't bottle all that shit up and not have some phyicial problems.

    God bless you my friend, I wish you the best!

    NB

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