Slowly killing myself (page 2)

I'm sorry you are having to deal with all this. I am not able to say I understand, as I have to doctor up alcohol so much its barely alcoholic. The stuff tastes nasty. And on that note, I suggest you change your addiction/way of dealing with your sadness. Chocolate helps- emotionally and physically it does wonders (for us girls anyhow). The good thing is right after halloween, it all goes on sale! Stock up for the holidays, say goodbye to the booze purveyors and find a new distraction.

This sounds flippant, but it really isn't. I wish you well, take care of yourself. If it is a death sentence for you to remain a JW, perhaps some counseling with your wife might help her understand your str muggles and stress. If it were my husband, I'd want him living and happy, not miserable drunk and then dead early. Thats not good.

Shelly

eclipse

(((((((5th)))))))

I don't have anything to add to the great advice posted,

so I just wanted you to know that you have our support, and we're here for ya.

onacruse

5th, you have another p/m.

JK666

Hey,

I'm sending a PM

JK

AudeSapere

Do what you have to do in order to start healing as quickly as possible.

You could turn this into a doctor-sanctioned reason to skip meetings and re-focus attention on healthier habits.

-Aude.

fifi40

The liver is very efficient at repairing itself depending on the level of damage done...........my advice would be ditch the booze and start drinking lots of water.......this can have a dramatic effect on the enzyme levels..........

all the best

Fi

Robdar

PROBLEM:

My drinking way too much is because I have a hard time dealing with wanting to leave the 'truth' but can't. Family, friends, wife, kids...

Who needs Armageddon? The Society will just kill us off right now!

The problem is that you are drinking way too much and blaming others for your drinking problem. Nobody or nothing can cause you to drink if you do not want to.

Solution:

Stop blaming the society and take control of yourself. You know what needs to be done. Your family, friends, wife, kids, etc will thank you for it.

AWAKE&WATCHING

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((5thgen))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

one day at a time - it's all any of us can do really.

jgnat

Alcohol has never caught me, but I have close family members and friends with addiction problems. I do have a naturally addictive personality, however. The difference with me? I'm terrified of losing control, I won't give it up for any man or chemical. They say that addicts have a high threshhold for risk, so will indulge in risky behavior long enough for it to take hold. Here's how I'd restate your problem:

My drinking way too much is because I have a hard time dealing with wanting to leave the 'truth' but ~~can't~~ won't. Family, friends, wife, kids...

As Robdar pointed out, by blaming others for your situation, you have removed yourself as part of the solution. If you're really a dust mote on a string, there's not much anyone can do for you, is there? If on the other hand you've got a functioning brain and heart, you can choose to improve your situation. You might want to try what I tried to get Cordelia to do. Write a pro and con list. Consider the consequences of ANY action you might take. Decide if you can live with the aftermath. Death by alcohol should be on your list as one of your choices.

Sirona: What happens is that at first you have a really good reason to drink. Then you drink for any reason.

After a while, circumstances become a handy excuse, don't they? What if you had a perfectly balanced life with no problems? Could you walk away from the alcohol? Really? This is where AA comes in, "Hello, I'm Mr. 5, and I'm an alcoholic."

Slowly killing myself

Sirona

JWdaughter