Reasons why I wouldn't get a KM while I was still a dub??

by noni1974 12 Replies latest jw friends

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  noni1974

  I've been out 9 years already.I just had a flash back last night.I was just wondering if any ex elders on the board could give me a good reason why I never got a KM.I thought it was kind of odd for a baptized publisher to not get one.Then again I never knew what bookstudy I was supposed to go to anyway.Since my family for the most part didn't go to it.We must have been the weak family in the congergation.And my Mom wonders why I left.I never got the required indocternation sessions and I was able to think for myself.

  BTW I only remember my Dad going out in field service a few times.My Mom I don't remember going out at all.I think she may have been one of the first to use depression as a reason to get out of it.That and she had panic attacks when she had to give talks.Hyper ventilating and freaking out on stage.
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  Serg

  Noni, I currently find myself in that same situation except I use it to my advantage since I am now an undercover fader/"apostate". It has been 5 or 6 months now since I have not seen the conductor give me or my wife a KM. I've always told my wife that we are really not supposed to ask for it since I would know being an ex-ms. Not having a KM has actually detered and discouraged my wife from going to the service meetings lately which is what I'm actually shooting for, haha! I just take it one meeting absence at a time, one excuse at a time, pretty soon she'll be so embarrased from missing so many meetings she won't even want to show her face and its not like the "elders" over here do sheparding calls anyways, lazy-a$$es. So mission accomplished!
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  LisaRose

  I was in the same situation. Not regular in service, missed a few meetings. But even when I was trying harder, I never got the D---- KM. Just wasn't a member of the club. I felt invisible, because even when I was sort of regular in attndance, it's like no one noticed me. Oh - are you new??? No, just the invisible witness.