It's funny how 2 hours can make you question the doubts you've had for months. Just got home from the hall after speaking with an elder... had a friendly chat about my doubts... finally culminating in my admitting that I didn't believe the discreet slave really existed, and that all my JW beliefs were non-existent. 2 hours. Maybe if i was older (i'm 17) and more eloquent, or better yet, more prepared, I could have had the upper hand. Who am I kidding.
I'm tittering on the brink of despair... sad... I thought I had all these proofs... he simply threw them out. Made me doubt my own doubts.
Ex.: Who is the only org. who preaches worldwide, and who most earthlings know about? (I told him it wasn't the preaching that was important, it was the content, but it failed..)
One that caught me offguard at first was that he said that apostates seek only to destroy, not to build. I know, I know, you guys also offer different hopes, alternatives to JW, therefore you build. And after seeing all your messages, your jokes, your comments on other non-related issues, I see he's mistaken on your account. You're fun guys (and gals) to write to, and (sniff, sniff) i LOVE YOU!!! okay, okay. Maybe not. But i truly, truly appreciate you all.
I'll have to work on my "proofs", perhaps. Or maybe not. Maybe just the fact that the elder was 1.A longtime friend 2.Convinced he was right and 3.An elder, duh... threw me off. Talking to a total stranger JW would've been easier, I think. I hope.
Could someone just post some links, some info., about facts proving that JW aren't God's org. (I know, all this freaking board is about proving that) and that apostates don't just destroy the org, they also build a new hope.
And what are your views on religion now? Do you still pray? Read the bible? Do you believe in the Apocalypse, in good and evil?
Again, I appreciate your mere existence, and thank you all!!!