I have a serious and I need your help.....

by Faithful-n-Discreet Wife 36 Replies latest jw friends

  • Guest with Questions
    Guest with Questions

    Never having been a witness I could be totally off base here. First I don't believe in meddling in other people's marriages but when there is verbal or physical abuse it's a different story. My witness mother is going through verbal abuse with her husband and at times he threatens to divorce her! It seems to go with the territory; that many witness men become domineering and abusive.

    I get the feeling that you were both very attracted to each other physically; that it's mostly about sex. I could be wrong. I was young once and I do remember but I don't think that in itself it's going to sustain a relationship if other very important things are going wrong.

    You say he was shy. He doesn't seem that shy now. Was he acting with you beforehand just to reel you in? Is he feeling remorse for going all the way before marriage and blaming you for his fall?

    I personally feel that you really need to think hard about this. Is this the life you want for yourself, for your future kids, for future grandkids?

    I suggest continuing going to your church and pray that God will give you guidance in how to deal with this. I do believe that He sometimes places us in a certain situation, not only for own benefit, but maybe even for others who need to see the light and walk away from this coercive (what I believe) cult. We may not see it as a benefit now and I'm sure there will be many here that will think that being in a cult was absolutely no benefit to them, and they may be very well be right. But we don't always sense God working in our lives and possibly after it's all over you might see this. When I say this I'm not referring to those that have been so traumatized by the Org that it's very difficult to get beyond it.

    Take care

  • Sad emo
    Sad emo

    Sounds as though you've left him physically but not emotionally - and for that, you're still allowing him to abuse you, for example why are you scared of what he'll think if he knows you're here or going to church? What business is that of his? You've left him.

    Only half-leaving is not healthy at all. Either go back and take abuse or work further on leaving him - completely.

    That's entirely your decision, I pray you make the right one.

  • sweetstuff
    sweetstuff

    You said, you dearly love him, miss him. But if he dearly loved you, he nevered would have been abusive to begin with. Believe me, I am not talking out of my hat here, I married an abusive man, verbally, emotionally and would have been physically if I had not threatened to slit his throat in his sleep, if he laid a hand on me! ( He quickly put his fist down) RUN, RUN, RUN. Don't ever look back. As much as the pain is there, knowing you love him, you need to stop and think about how much he "loves" you. He views you as a mistake, one he has to suffer with, his family at him, friends about marrying this "worldly girl". You love him, I get that, I really do. But you need to love yourself MORE. (((((Hugs)))))

  • cyd0099
    cyd0099

    FnD,

    Your story just ripped the heart from my chest. I'm so sorry for you.

    Sex was the basis for my marriage too. It's just not enough to keep it going, even without abuse.

    I wish you the best during this terrible time.

  • orbison11
    orbison11

    um i am thinking dont feed the trolls

    just my opinion

    orb

  • Faithful-n-Discreet Wife
    Faithful-n-Discreet Wife

    The reasons I keep thinking about going back is because leaving shows lack of faith in God. We are married and I feel God would be disappointed in me because I know his laws and I continue to ignore him. I keep thinking that even if he doesn't change his old ways...I was still a faithful servant to God. I don't want to be in an abusive relationship...I just want to have him...the man that says he loves me...i'm scared i won't find someone that knows me like he does...we really got along well when dealing with our business or other things...i just saw a pattern when the topic was about spirituality...i know its naiive to think he'll change...i just keep thinking that i never gave him a second chance...i just got up and left....i would never want him to just leave if i was still trying to adjust to all of this....it's such a messed situation! I just want to make it better. I don't want to take apart what God yoked together. I'm just confused...scared....lonely...i have no idea what i'm dealing with....the organization is bigger than me....but I keep thinking God will guide me...but how can he guide me if I'm not obeying his commandment to stay with my husband. I'm torn. But I need outside advice....i realize mine is emotional...

  • cyd0099
    cyd0099

    FnD,

    His second chance came and went after the first time he abused you. All this about wanting to please god is not all on you. He isn't living up to his responsibilities whether he's christian or not.

    Suggest REAL counseling. Not the WTS window washer wisdom. See how he reacts.

  • Vivamus
    Vivamus

    Dear Faithful,

    God is love, He does not want you to be in an unloving or abusive relationship.

    Edited to add : go and talk to the people in your church. Or get real counselling, cuz it's wrong to think you are not follwing Gods rules if you take care of yourself.

  • dogisgod
    dogisgod

    His approach to you seems like pure manipulation....or is it he just "sins", confesses b4 he's found out, then forgivin but WHAT ABOUT YOU? Just the whole thing of keeping you a SECRET while he played rightous repentant brother says he loves HIMSELF more than he loves Jehovah and more than you. He didn't want "friendship" he wanted sex from day one and manipulated you and the elders to get what he wanted...in the way he wanted it. Now he's verbally abusive. He has Proven that he doesn't value you more than sex. Get out of there and get some self esteem. Go back to your family. Treat yourself the way you would like to be treated. I'm sorry for all the turmoil he has caused you. Guys like this really pi.. me off. Lots of love to you.

  • lesterd
    lesterd

    You have answered your own questions and solved your own problems. Do not fall into what is discribed at Prov 26:11 and go back.

    11

    Just like a dog returning to its vomit, the stupid one is repeating his foolishness.

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