I feel like I was once a patch of sand on the shore blowing this way and that. I would lap with the waves, wet with the rain and dry warm in the sun, print feet of the children, their mums, grans and dads, line castles of sand and hold up their flags. But I was taken in hand and heated till red, forged to glass, blown and bubbled clear as as the day. Then dropped like a bomb, smashed, splintered and sharp, then crushed pressed and crumbled with no chance of a part, in the life that I'd toiled bent and given my soul. Guess I'm powdered and spent, cast out in the dark!
Seasonal Stress Gettin' to You? This is your thread to unload- Feel Free !
by flipper 21 Replies latest jw friends
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*summer*
Thank You for this thread, Mr Flipper...
YES! I need to vent BIG TIME!
But it would get me banned for life on this forum.
In any case, only typing those few words made me feel better.
And...life goes on*
*summer*
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chickpea
i am on a state of suspension here..... limping along on two opinions as it were
i know that my association with the borg has ended .... i linger at the distal margin by the barest of association with individuals who are endeared to me
i need to sift thru the debris to reconstruct a meaningful and satisfying concept of a faith system that will grant me the grace and inspiration to maneuver the vagaries of life spiritually intact.....
i do not have any desire to plunge into the "season"..... but have already told my kids, without too much other info, that i dont care if they chose to engage in any or all activities that define the holiday.....
i am not depressed per se..... just kinda numb..... it is a lot to absorb, and i still have to determine how best to reveal this seperation to my family..... only my immediate family were in the borg and ALL are disenchanted and faded, if not downright hostile, so what delays me is the necessity to take responsibility for my part in advancing their intrusion into their lives...... ugh
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flipper
SUMMER- Thanks for opening up ! I know what you mean. If we all opened up about what really pissed us off, we'd all get kicked off the board !LOL Well sis, just know I care and hope you find some meaningful, caring times during this Christmas season.
CHICKPEA- I know how you feel. I have some family in the witnesses too, some avoid me, a few don't so I get the feeling too of being somewhat detatched and in-between. A weird feeling. If you can involve yourself with hobbies you enjoy or do something to relieve your stress over the holidays like listen to calming music might help. Is there something you enjoy doing that would help loosen your stress up a little ? Just trying to give you ideas to think about. I too try to keep myself busy. I run my own business so that isn't too hard . Peace out sis, hang in there , be with family that wants to be with you too , don't worry about those who don't
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*summer*
Thank you, flipper.
And this too shall pass:-)
*summer*
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flipper
SUMMER- Yeah, that is true what you said. This too shall pass. Winter will come and go, and your summer will come again! Peace out, Mr. Flipper
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MsMcDucket
Just got a diagnosis for a serious illness, lost my appeal with my disability insurer through my job about 8 months ago, my husband is a disabled veteran, my twin daughter's are die-hard Witnesses (Their birthday is tomorrow.), I don't know what medication that they're going to put me on (I looked at some of the medications and they are expensive as hell.). . .
One of the twins came over today and saw the Christmas tree up with stockings around it. I'm still nervous around them. I'll try to hide stuff that's not right to them. For instance, I will close down this web page so that they won't see it. She told me that she had a part in some assembly (She's a translater: Spanish and Sign Language) here in town and that they will be sending her to Texas for another assembly part. The other twin has taken part in a recent assembly talking about "Trials and Tribulations" in the ministry. I'm sure that they mentioned that their mother is no longer a believer. Oh well!
The twin brought over some water and wood for the fireplace because we're having a ice storm and on the news it said to expect power outages. I had this new coat in the closet that I couldn't wear (It's an expensive coat. Well, for me it was.). I gave it to her and I wondered if she was going to take it or not. . .thinking that it might be a birthday gift or something. I told her if she or her sister couldn't wear it to bring it back to me!
And I feel spacey? I've got this surreal feeling. . .can't think right. . .
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flipper
Mrs. McDUCKET- I am so sorry you are going through these physical problems. Is there a agency in your state that can assist you financially with heavy medical bills? In California there is something called Medical, which assists those who have lower incomes to pay most of their medical bills. I hope this next election we get a president who will get medical insurance for all citizens in America. I hope your daughters continue to assist you in spite of their being Jehovah's Witnesses. My wife and I send our love. Peace out, Mr. Flipper
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MsMcDucket
Mrs. McDUCKET- I am so sorry you are going through these physical problems. Is there a agency in your state that can assist you financially with heavy medical bills?
That kind of makes me feel worse! The thought of having to beg. I would do it for my children or my husband; but me? I'm use to doing without. I just wish that I'd gotten my money through my disability insurer. I paid for the insurance. That makes me so mad that they got away with not paying me!
My husband is a veteran. There is an AER program. I might talk to them. I gotta sort things out. I am not opposed to cleaning out horse stalls or digging a ditch. I don't think they'd like a person with a rash on their hands working at McDonald's or in a grocery store. Something will come up! My Mom said I had a "Guardian Angel". I think he's on a break right now!
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flipper
MS MCDUCKET- I didn't mean to make you feel worse. That was not my intention. If I did, I apologize. I truly hope you can get medical help for your condition. I wish you the best