by minimus 45 Replies latest jw friends
Are you consumed by your having been a Witness? Yes
Are you very angry all the time because of your JW past? More or less Angry
Have you ever thought about recieving professional therapy??
NO NO NO NO NO NO NEVER, YOU HEAR ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will receive therapy eventually, I know it will help.
I was an obsessed ex-jw. Now I'm an ex-ex-jw. I don't care to read about them, hear about them, think about them. We cannot regret the experiences that have made us who we are, that is futile and stupid. We can only regret the things we don't do, so GO DO SOME NON-JW STUFF AND ENJOY LIFE!
As far as I'm concerned, my life just is, just was, it wasn't horrible or whatever. I wasn't an African child soldier or a Muslim sex-slave. So what I was raised in a fundamentalist Christian religion/cult, it gives me fascinating perspective and it has done a lot of good for me. Admitting that is pretty awesome. Hell my relationship with my mother is even improving.
Hell I doubt I'll be around here much come New Years, the only things I care reading about are non-JW stuff.
Are you consumed by your having been a Witness?
Yes.
Are you very angry all the time because of your JW past?
Yes.
Have you ever thought about recieving professional therapy??
Yes.
I considered stopping there with one-word answers. Everyone who knows me
knows that I wouldn't do that.
I post too much on JWD and spend too much time reading here. I wonder what
new information is out every day.
I am very bitter at WTS for taking me when I was vulnerable and keeping my
mind in a prison. I am bitter that they keep my wife and mother and others.
I am not really prepared for a therapist to tell me to get over it, and charge me
$100 for each hour he does so. I don't say that it is not worth it. I just don't expect
to be able to go to 4 sessions and be "cured" or "over it." It would take longer and
it is not something I am ready to pay for. It would help immensely, but would be
an expense. If I found the right group therapy for this particular problem, or could
volunteer for free therapy, I would do so.
I have not found the study that is looking for former cult-members. I don't know of
a former cult-member group session in my area. There are large universities near me,
and I have gone to their websites and I have sent email to the dean of the departments
that train psychologists. I have received no answers, but will find the right place
sooner or later.
Otherwise, I am stable. I don't want to hurt myself or others. I don't want to attack
the JW's that ring my bell or get involved in some action against the buildings or
persons of WTS.
I am quite early in the fading process, meaning I just recently learned 'the truth'. I am so obsessed right now. I cannot stop thinking about it. All day, before I go to bed, etc. When the door rings or phone rings I worry it's the elders trying to hound me (so far they haven't bothered me). I just can't stop thinking about it. I guess it's part of the recovery process. I can't wait until it's a distant memory and I just live life as normal.
No, No, and No.
There are more worthwhile things worthy of my devotion. Spending time being angry takes away from time I can be spending being happy.
my friends say i am i come on everyday. i dont' think so. i guess its cause we know what we have been thru. i have had therapy
lulu
