Hey dude, I wish you luck getting through this.
My brother and my last girlfriend were both diagnosed with BPD. I'm quite alert to that now and I didn't sense any of that from you during our brief visit. Although, I think the air might have been playing tricks with my mind. At any rate, I sure hope you get what you have and what you need straightened out. ((((((((((((((((((((Mincan))))))))))))))))))))