I just want to say hi to Cognac and hi to her friend! And that I have been following this story and am amazed at its details!
You are very brave, and impulsive, like me, Cognac! I faded except my family knows how I feel. So, I faded from the rest of the JW's. My family is too afraid of the shame it will have on their family if they were to tell on me, so they don't tell on me. They just don't much talk to me to make up for their guilty consciences, I suppose. But if I were DF'd it would be worse, so I'll take what I can get. I moved far far away from where I grew up and enjoy relative peace as a result. It's a hard life though, but so much better than being a JW! Oh, and I was once a believer, a 100% believer, Cognac, so I'm not just talking crazy apostate talk at ya.
But of course, reading through your journey on here thus far, you already know that.
So, like I originally said, WELCOME.