My Struggle.............

by AK - Jeff 22 Replies latest jw friends

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  AK - Jeff

  It has dawned on me that I have not become the Christian that I thought I would when leaving the Jw religion.

  I don't deny the power of faith, I retain faith in something beyond just the here and now, or maybe I retain credulous belief that way? I have discovered that my religion was bad - then I discovered that the 'Holy Writ' upon which it is founded is pretty leaky also. Then I discovered that most "Holy Writings" are just as porous. And the religions that claim to stream from these writings are the foundational cause of much of the world's hatred and war.

  Muslims dare to blow themselves up to prove that Allah is Good. Christians run after them with bombs and missiles and bullets that rip and tear children to pieces. Hindus can't get along. Chinese hate Japanese. Americans distrust China and Russia. Heterosexual bigots hate Homosexual bigots.

  I can't sort it out - it is too big - too messy.

  I shall continue the journey, but the roadmap is forever burnt in the flames of reality for me. Alas, I share this with my JWD friends, for most others have left me due to the above discoveries. Yet, I would not un-ring that bell.

  The struggle continues.... one day at a time.

  Jeff
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  Dismembered

  Greetings AK - Jeff,

  Like you've already said. All you can do is take it one day at a time. Things seem to sort their way out.

  Dismembered
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  Satanus

  It's painful coming down out of artificial constructs. As i was coming down, i took up some spiritual pratices, meditation. It enabled me to see directly, at times. I know that quite a few here think that i am still a believer of fantasies. Perhaps they are right. Time will tell. Anyhow, this is about you, and i share that spiritual aspect, in case you want or are able to go that path. If not, that's fine.
  
  I see many parallels between the different monkey troops, different monkey species and humans and their national groups, religious groups, gangs, mafias, etc. It suggests that we are merely the highest form of animal on this planet. However, in addition to being that, we have a secondary nature, the spiritual (if you want to go that route). I have no beefs w the atheist path.
  
  S
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  LouBelle

  Hey Jeff,

  The journey one takes after leaving any religion is a personal one. No path is the same as the next. Don't look without for the way / answers, look within. You are the one that knows what is best for you, you know what you need spiritually, you know what you lack spiritually, you cannot lie to yourself about anything...

  The above is how I live my life - I'm spiritual - I do believe in a God but not mainstream, I don't have to look/read books to find him - I have to look within me to find God. The peace I have from this way of life is astounding!!!!! I have no worries / no fears. I'm complete / whole / fulfilled, and if problems arise...again I look within.

  May you find your path in this world Jeff. The encouraging thing is that you still keep looking and you still take one day at a time.
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  carla

  And so the struggle for meaning continues? as it has always been throughout the ages.
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  OnTheWayOut

  Jeff, I understand your struggle.

  If it helps, most Muslims are peaceful and would never blow up anything or anyone including themselves.
  Most Christians are not desirous of killing Muslims or any other peoples.

  You left out Jews. The plight of the Jews is well known. They are fighting for what they believe is right.
  Same with the Muslims that oppose them.

  Hindus get along fairly well, you are hearing news that makes headlines. The billions generally don't
  make headlines.

  Most wars in Man's history have been fought over religious beliefs, so there is truth to your feelings.
  Your typical person does have prejudice within himself, but I believe he is basically good and
  caring. I believe that the most hateful person would put it aside if he just saw it from the other side.

  I wish I could say more positive things without stretching credulity.

  Try to focus on your own path, not that of which the headlines depress us.
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  Sad emo

  Good post Jeff.

  I'm glad you're not becoming the Christian you thought you'd be - that probably means you're becoming the person God intends you to be!

  One day at a time is a good principle to follow too - it's in de Bible ya know! NOW is the day of salvation - not yesterday or tomorrow!
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  Pioneer Spit...oh, i mean Spirit

  nice
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  leftbelow

  Jeff

  That sums up exactly how I feel right now.
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  changeling

  Then I discovered that most "Holy Writings" are just as porous. And the religions that claim to stream from these writings are the foundational cause of much of the world's hatred and war.

  Religion is destructive and devisive. Stay clear of it and have peace.

  changeling