I hope you continue posting. I see it as one of those tv dramas where we have to keep the victim (you ) talking, because if they go to sleep they will die.
Keep posting dear. I stand by my belief that you are searching like the rest of us. But you don't need anyone's permission to post, just because of few apostates are trigger happy just like when we were JW's. Ignore them. Keep movin' on honey. Glad you're here!