To the forum, please read even if its long...I want to thank you all
I remember when I first started posting here, almost one year ago...I had just written letters to evey JW I could find telling them what a bunch of BS the JWs were.... Most wanted to kill me, including my dad, who called me a fornicator, and called all my friends wanting to know what drug I was on...
I learned that JWs will always try and find wrongs in the character who's showing the inconsistiancies, they never will listen to what you're saying just attack your character. But there have been a few that I've reached; some have even taken a stand with me.
I also learned that people have different circumstances, that I shouldn't judge those that don't take a stand. I stayed drunk for the first 4 months after I wrote those letters, its hard completely losing family, even though it's mostly been a sham-my relationship with my family I mean, ever since I quit attending meetings, my Dad and Mom still talked to me for the most part, but after my letter writing campaign, they even returned my letters, and refuse to talk.
I re-read one of the letters I sent last year a few days ago, and I was surprised at the love I displayed in each one, yet some of my letters were very direct, the ones to my PO dad were very loving. I told him that I couldn't live with myself any longer, seeing how this foolish religion had affected so many lives in the family. How people wern't living to their full potiential, and that this religion used love as blackmail to keep folks in line.. how many in the family had contacted me and relaized they were living a lie just to keep their famlies in tact.
I have to thank people like Challenging, and many others that showed me that I acted like an ass at times and needed to back off, not realizing how much people love their famlies and didn't want to lose them... I'd lived over 17 years without mine so I had become cold... I want to appoligise to you that I offeneded. You all have taught me well, I thank you all even when I've pissed you off and you have me, we still are all learning how to cope with the BS here in our lives.... We really need each other... that's part of what I've learned.
I want to say Java, and Granny Mouthy, and Granny Velta, have been an inspiriation to me, they are true Christians in my mind, and if I ever go back to a Church one day, I hope that I can be half the Christians you all are... That is the Christ that I love when I read him, I admit that I haven't accepted his divinity, but you people make me love his words all the more, and I can see that living life like you do, and many others on this site, is a good thing, whether I reconise his divinity or not. I love you all even though I've never personally met you....
I also want to say that Flipper, Void Eater, Crumpet, Hemp, JK666, Oompa, Junction Guy, Roller Dave, and many others, I wished like hell we were neighbors, I'd love to get high with you guys one day and talk a long walk in the mountains somewhere... You guys rock...
I want to thank you all here on this forum, even those who've mad me mad, and me them... I don't think relationships can be productive if people hold their tounges, you haven't and neither have I...I've learned a lot... I do not plan on ever leaving, I'm just reflecting the hours I've spent here, and thanking you all for teaching me that I'm not always right (I knew that already) and that there are some really smart cookies here on this forum... You guys have really helped me out of this funk, so before one of you pisses me off again and I write something really nasty, thank you all... one year later, I feel OK.... finally I feel OK....Now its my turn to help others the way you've all helped me....
OK, I have more to say, but I just felt that all of you needed to know that. Guys, thank you, really, thank you all...