I could of missed the pain, but I'd a had to miss the dance....

by cognac 14 Replies latest jw friends

  • cognac
    cognac

    Hi JW ~

    yeah, i'm still going to meetings... Elders aren't hounding me right now, I think they may be scared of me... It's really my family that's hounding me... WOW ~ it sucks so bad.... All I get is, "Did you listen to the WT today?" "What apostate sites have you been on?" Crap after crap after crap... Wow, I can't even take it anymore... I hate this so bad...

    The worst thing about it is, i'm not a bad person... I'm just trying to go according to what the scriptures say... Wow, I guess its really, really bad to do that unless they have an answer to your questions... Sucks, if I was going to get in big trouble, I wish it was for becoming a moviestar and making a million dollars...

  • JWdaughter
    JWdaughter

    I remember thinking I should have gotten caught having wild sex or won the lotto (this was years later during a shunning phase), or robbed a bank or something for the way I was being treated. I was this sincere innocent who just wanted to do the right thing! I was given the treatment given a SHOCKING sinner.

    Funny thing was, I later came to find out that right before I left, my mom's cousin, a long time JW with a JW husband had shot and killed her husband and his JW mistress in a motel room. She wasn't prosecuted (wives done wrong weren't sometimes back then I guess) and she didn't get dis-fellowshipped either. She is the only one I know of to this day that still wouldn't speak to me:) I was DA'd you know:) Her eldest son later accidentally killed his younger brother. All just part of Jehovah's happy family, you know!

  • dawg
    dawg

    Yea JW Daughter, what a happy family the JW communnity is right?

    Here's the way I see it... your're born, never having taken a breath... the doctor slaps your ass and you take in that first breath...Pain, the pain of life....the first thing you feel is pain...and with each successive birth in this life, pain follows... Cognac's being reborn again...and that shit hurts.

    ANd from there on out you skin your knee, you lose at love, you always have to ask yourself these questions....

    "Who would bear the whips and scorns of time, for the oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely?"

    "The pangs of despised love, the law's delay, the insolence of office, and the spurns that paitent merit of the unworthy takes.".... "To grunt and sweat under a weary life,-But that dread of something after death, the undiscovered country, from whose born no traveller returns...Puzzles the will, and makes us bear those ills we have than fly fly to others we know not of?"

    It may be hard, but I'm glad I was born, the sun shines, the grass is green, lovely childern play in the park, but each rebirth I've had always takes me Back to this Shakesphesre quote from Hamlet...becasue at times this living stuff is hard.... and each and everytime, I'm glad I danced... gald as freaking hell, becasue at least I'm still kicking and being a thorn in the side of the idiots who are still fooled ny the WT... ANd honesly, life's pretty damn good for the most part.

  • MsMcDucket
    MsMcDucket

    When I stopped dancing, I got fat!

  • Gregor
    Gregor

    Looking back on the tremendous impact a cockeyed religous cult has had on my one and only life I still appreciate that things could have been worse. No regrets. I met my beloved wife because of it and maybe it kept me from being killed in Vietnam. Every cloud....

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