The last week or so, I've had recurring dreams of elders coming after either me or my wife (who is still a believer). For example, I dreamt elders were accusing us of being apostates and were demanding a meeting with us. They were citing lack of regular meeting attendance as the reason for their suspicions. I had a different dream last night, which I can't remember now, but again it had to do with elder(s) accusing me of some wrongdoing.
Has this hapenned to anyone else here? I consider myself a succesful fader. I haven't gone to a meeting in over a year. I attend assamblies irregularly, and then only to help my wife with the kids.
The other thing I've noticed within my mind is, I'm starting to do more things that JWs disapprove of and getting the sensation that I'm going to get busted. For instance, last night, I was at a bookstore and was perusing over the astrology books. I remember looking over my shoulder, and thought about what excuse I would give should someone bust me.
I don't know why I would rationally have these feelings of getting busted. I think i executed a pretty good fade. I moved from the congregation where I grew up to another congregation nearby, then to a congregation several States away, (I know, I should've just remained incognito then, but couldn't) where I executed the fade. My wife is now in yet another congregation. The point is, I'm not quite sure what elder body even had jurisdiction, which is why I think these feelings are irrational.
Is this a normal part of getting out? Anyone else gone through this???