I finally told another JW about how I am feeling. EXACTLY how I am feeling.
She is the only JW I know that wont rat me out and she isnt active herself. But still.... to tell someone is a big deal to me.
I just went on and on about so many things, the generation, 144k, 1914,1975,1925, blood, Russell, Rutherford, information control etc.etc. I couldnt stop!.
I told her at this point I absolutely do not believe that this is the "truth". I dont want help. I dont need help. There is no going back cause I know too much.
She just asked me what am I going to do? I wish I knew. Could my marriage handle it? I wish I knew. She knows my wife so she has an idea as to what I will be dealing with.
She texted me the next day, she was spinning from everything I told her...
Anyway, I dont know what will come of this but it was a big move for me. Just thought I'd share where I am at right now... Still..........