Hi James -
Welcome to JWD. We have many people (teens included) on this site. The majority of the teens seem to be looking for a way to leave the organization while maintaining their family relationships.
You will find MUCH good, solid advice here.
I'm going to make the first suggestion for you though: If you want reasoned and sound, mature advice, spell like a grown up. Your post is full of notescript as if you were texting your homies.
I think most of the thoughtful and worthwhile posters will probably skip over your post and you will miss out.
Consider editing your post to one that is more appropriate to a serious, grown-up discussion board.
It's just a suggestion and my opinion. Do with it what you will.
Good luck on your journey.
-Aude Sapere (meaning: Dare to Know; Dare to Have Wisdom/Understanding; Dare to Think for Yourself)