Welcome insearchof,
I too am a newbie. Circumstances differ because I am an unbaptized almost former student looking for the truth but dealing with the confusion that the JWs teach and perpetuate is the same. I have found just by reading the posts, saying nothing, that this group of people listens very well and when you ask specific questions that are really bothering you, you will get responses meant sincerely to help you find information that may get you on the right track or help you find your own thoughts just by venting your confusion. Keep coming back. You'll find a certain peace in that you are not alone. There are many of us looking for "the truth."