Had a nice long talk with him yesterday....he sure seems to be on the fast track all of a sudden , but actually has shared doubts with his wife for years. But once he makes up his mind....man he really moves. So some of my elders know I think it bullshit, but I did not just come right out and say it.
So I try to really let my wife know how isolated my life is now (I am a hermit but for JWD). Let her know my depression is not going away, and why I had to let the CO know two years ago I was going to have to move away and leave my family and friends. Life is kinda ok when it is just me and her, as long as we dont ever mention anything JW (which was the biggest thing in our lives). She is still not open to even the microscopic thought that it is not really the truth and Jehovah is not with them. But she has her answer for me...."You should go the (meds) doctor again, and pray more sincerely and more often, rely more on Jehovah." I would like to take 75K, buy an old 34 foot sailing yacht for 25k I found in key west, and just dissapear. I am a good sailor and have always wanted to exlplore the bahamas, carribean, and central america extensivley.....I could last a good while...........................................oompa
as much as want to go load up at the abc store, im not....it helps nothing