got a letter today from a really nice guy who was in the BS group that met in my home for 10+ yrs.... privy to some of the huge issues my family has faced.... smart enough guy, UBM, at least one grown kid in and married into a huge 2nd/3rd generation family, grandkids yada yada.....
he saw, but did not speak to me, at the school performance i alluded to in another post........ http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/156961/1.ashx......... as far as i know we never even made eye contact..... it was a crowded event in an elementary school but i saw him as he and his wife arrived late and scurried for seating
at any rate.... this is part of a letter that came in the mail today ..... i cannot believe the spin that the R&F are fed and seem to swallow down without the fava beans and nice chianti ( i do not mean to berate his heartfelt and genuinely offered plea.... i just cannot stomach the blind allegiance to the b0rg)
I have talked to a few of the friends about what can be done to encourage you and your family and decided to simply put a few thoughts in a letter. I understand a few of the brothers have tried to encourage you two (NOT a single "brother" has stopped by in nearly 3 years.... only the occasion car group of "sisters" and kids) I think i know most of what happened in your family and there may be more, and it is certainly enough for anyone to be heartbroken. But it is not enough to stop serving Jehovah. It might seem like it is too late to make changes or you may be bitter or even afraid of what might happen if you returned to worshipping Jehovah.
You can easily deflect any well meaning but overly nosey or blunt probe withthe truth: "It is too painful to discuss right now - I just came today to worship Jehovah"
Here's the rub.I cant tell you how much we miss you and how many times you have been in out prayers. But there is no way to tell you this without also telling you that you have some heavy lifting to do. YOu have to start over spiritually. Jesus taught his disciples " Truly I say to YOU, unless YOU turn around and become as little children, YOU will by no means enter the kingdom of the heavens. Therefore, whoever will humble himself like this little child is one of the greatest in the kingdom of the heavens". I know it is difficult. It is realy really difficult to go back to the kingdom hall where you may be given counsel and be ready to accept direction. I know because i have done it. And I can tell you the friends in @@@@@ are no different that the friends in @@@@@. They all want you by their side worshiping Jehovah.
Nothing I have told you is new or particularly insightful. But nonetheless, there is something different now. There is an urgency growing in the organization that is absolutely palpable. I have been a Witness for 37 years and I have never seen a sense of urgency like I see now. The Watchtower is changed. Only those attending are receiving the study issue. The meetings are shortened by 15 minutes so we can go out and talk to at least one person on the way home. Anyone not absolutely needed at Bethel has been released so they can spend more time preaching. At a recent Circuit Assembly, I spoke to one of the anointed and it made the hair on the back of my neck stand up.
XXXXXXXX and YYYYYYYY, the time left is short. I dont know how short, but it can be very short if you have a scab you have to pick off your heart before it can start working again. And if that scab stays where it is and thickens, you will absolutely see things happening at the same time everyone else in Jehovah's organization does and will sit in misery not being able to move. I want you both to come back to the kingdom hall. Here is the best part: You dont have to do it alone. Ps.34:18: "Jehovah is near to those that are broken in heart; those that are crushed in spirit he saves." Please let us help you.
For All the Brothers,
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my pattern is to acknowledge the letter but avoid any comments that encourage further contact..... this is the first since my "awakening" and when i once did a mental inventory of which congro members might possibly be open to information about the b0rg.... he was one i thought might be smart enough to get it......now i am not so sure
ugh.... it isnt like we are close and although in the past we would go out to dinner or bbqs with he and his wife.... nothing in my life changes if i never see him again.....