First of all, I want to say to Makena that I am SOOOO sorry about the loss of your daughter. I ache for you. Nothing compares to the loss of your child. I pray to god, whomever he is, that he will ease your pain and aid you through the ongoing process of healing. God bless you.
Josephus:
Alot of us have been in your shoes. We have been betrayed by the only family and friends we have known and to come to the realization that these people are not our real friend is sickening. I've been in the exact same place that you are now. The only thing I can say to you is that healing is a process. Don't fight your anger and your sadness. As hellish as it is, just hold on because things will get better. Eventually, the anger and hurt will melt away and you will feel total peace. You will see the reason (as absurd as this may sound) that you were involved in this fucked up cult. You will take all of this information with you and become a much wiser person. You will do an EXCELLENT job with your children and become a much more understanding person of other people's plights.
I know this sounds like a bunch of psycho babble, but trust me it's true. I struggled through the same things for so long. And it is funny, I hate the fact that I was taken advantage of that way and raped spiritually, but sooo much good came out of it. Had I not experienced what I had, I often wonder where I would be right now. Not as good of a place that I am now, that's for sure. I would have been a callous, self righteous bitch, that's what I would have been. Please, Josephus, keep pushing forward. Although it's not fair that we have had to go through these horrible things, the peace, understanding, and happiness that you feel afterward makes it worth it. May peace be with you my friend. We are all here for you when you need us.
AMarie
