The biggest mistakes I have made in my life were because I thought God was giving me a sign, or telling me what to do.
I can attest to this fact as well. I remember the first time I tried fading. Every time I had a dream about armageddon, or I would hear from a relative I hadn't heard from in a while, I took these as signs from god to go back. But every time I did, it didn't take long to be reminded why I left in the first place. If god were really giving me a sign, he would've alleviated the nagging doubts I was having.