Thank you all for the warm welcome! I've been to this site over the years, but only started lurking heavily in the past few month due to the growing disappointment that I've felt in the few years since being baptized. My story is kind of familiar. So I'll just try to keep it brief: 30-something active sister ( or fading, I don't know yet ). Recently, an elder in my cong. told me he felt I was on the fringe, where the wolves are and I need to straighten up and get back into the flock. Baptized about 6 years ago. Raised in a divided household, but now both parents very active, father is an elder. LOTS of family in the truth, 3rd generation. Very happily married, and my hubby is not a witness (strange, huh ). My biggest issue is that I never, evered questioned the teachings of JW's until recently. And I've never, ever spoken openly about my doubts for fear of reprisal. I never questioned the 'truth', until it was too late, and I'm not at the point where I'm willing to lose mother, father, brothers and sisters, aunts, cousins and even coworkers due to my doubts. So I lurk.
To be honest, I still pray to Jehovah that I find the real truth. Right now I'm just trying to find a place where I can cope. I'm sure I will chime in here and there with many personal experiences that have fueled my doubts, but thats for another time and another thread.
Again thanks so much for the welcome, and I'm sure I'll be reading and posting more soon.