I'm so glad you made it. Some experiences will stay with you forever. PTSD is hard to fix, no wonder soldiers are frequently ill upon returning home.
My therapist once told me "any childhood you survive is a good one". He was raised in Brooklyn NY. He frequently had to fight in the streets. .
We once moved up- state and had to live in a housing project. It was the late 70's. My child got chased to school and home. They threw cold water on our cat during a freezing (below 0) winter and nearly killed it. A drug dealer lived across the hall from us, This was really the only time in our lives that being jws ever helped us. We were so naive that we never suspected he was a drug dealer. ,Despite no visible means of support, a Cadillac, expensive furniture and and bling.. He never bothered us, He knew we were too stupid to be of any harm to him.