I, too, never believed in jehovah.....
Remember the Wizard of Oz.......when the Great Oz was revealved to be a cowering little man?!?!?
That's what I think of!!
Did You Feel That Jehovah Loved You?
by minimus 38 Replies latest jw friends
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GoingGoingGone
I never felt good enough to be loved by Jehovah, or anyone else, for that matter. So I explained away the fact that I didn't feel Jehovah's love by blaming myself. Maybe I couldn't feel love at all, even though Jehovah loved me, I didn't feel it because there was something wrong with me. It had to be my fault.
Then my first child was born, and I felt a love for her immediately and totally. I would have died for her in an instant if it would have saved her from pain or suffering. And then I knew there was nothing wrong with my ability to feel love or to love someone.
When I was pregnant with my second child, I couldn't imagine loving anyone as much as I loved my first... but when he was born, I loved him just as much. Immediately. And I began to understand why it was so hard for me to believe that God was really there, really loved me or even cared: Feeling love for God (who is described as "Love" in the bible) should be similar to feeling love for your child. It's immediate, it's unquestionable, and it's truly beyond understanding and reason. Feeling love for God, if he exists, shouldn't have to be a constant battle.
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ex-nj-jw
Born in, raised in but never believed in a sky daddy that loved me or anyone else for that matter. He/She/It just never seemed real to me.
nj
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minimus
"sky daddy".
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joanne_
Very interesting question. The way I felt was that God did love me and he understood me and everything I was going through. I prayed constantly and he gave me peace. I did not feel that peace and love in the congregation though. I always felt on the outside and not fitting in. Thank goodness man is not the judge. And that is one of the reasons I left. I could feel the conditional love in the congregation. And it was not just me. I found alot of the seniors when they got older and could not do as much as they wanted, felt so bad and guilty. I just cannot take that kind of negitive engery anymore.
Joanne
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minimus
God was good. It was the people that sucked, huh?
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sacolton
I don't think I ever felt I could measure up. I wasn't regular at meetings. I didn't give talks. I put in 2 hours per month for field service. I rarely commented. I didn't associate with brothers after the meetings. So, I felt like a "black sheep".
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minimus
Sacolton, yeah I agree. Jehovah couldn't have loved you.
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buffalosrfree
Peace and love in the congregation is a myth and nothing but, love from the bros and sis' is another myth. condiotional love is the only thing that existed and that only very sparsely.
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Witness 007
I felt he loved me in a "I'm just an imaginary friend" kind of way.