Congrats on the drinking, glad to know you are doing your best to get that sorted out. Now about going back to the borg and possibly attending a meeting again, just "maybe".
Smack! Sorry, it was a friendly smack but a needed one. Why would you assume that you will find spirituality there? Sounds to me like you've been thru alot and you are still searching for some "meaning" in your life, so what if the 12 step program is based on spirituality. I highly doubt the 12 step program or any trained professional would tell someone with an alcohol addiction to go sit in front of an elder's meeting or put yourself in a situation to be made to feel like human crap, theology aside. Wouldn't help your sobriety me thinks.
I have a theory about growing up as a JW and how it can lead to addiction very easily. You, the child are told you are nothing special, you shouldn't want anything for yourself, desire anything, and if you aren't good enough, god is going to fry your azz at the big A. Umm, yeah, ok talk about built in self esteem issues! Wit kids are never given or told, that they can be something, they are special, they can dare to dream and follow it.....unless its a dream to "pioneer" GAG! Wit kids have their spirits and independant dreams crushed from a very early age, because its much easier to control them that way!
If your children have gained a heriditary tendancy towards alcohol abuse (which alot of studies show is possible!) why would you ever ever consider going back to an organization that could NURTURE that tendancy in your kids by making them feel guilty and crappy about themselves, repeatedly? Take the theology right out of the org and look at the emotional and mental side effects of being a dub. Guilt, feelings of worthlessness, fear of punishment, fear of achievement, of success. Why would you ever want to go back to that?? Loneliness perhaps? Remember those old faces you saw, who smiled and greeted you warmly?
Just remember, and you should know this, having been a dub, those faces were false. Because the minute you were gone, they started talking badly about you, BET ON IT! And the minute you came back into the fold, they wouldn't give a rat's arse about you, unless you were brother Kiss Ass 24/7. Now that's the "truth".