gloobster, I should have worded the question differently, but I think you got the jest of it. Good alias btw. Nice to meet you.
kitsune, very thoughtful post. Thank you and WELCOME! I look forward to getting to know you better.
nvrgnbk, reality is hard for me to live within. I am learning to deal with it, and making life adjustments that feel right for me. Just my process. I am ready to live the rest of my life with unanswered questions. Actually like the idea of not knowing all the answers. But I agree that it is taxing on the psyche to try to keep it all in a mental container. Don't ever want to go there again. I don't consider atheist to be any more "know it alls'" than any other group of people. I have known many in my life, I think they are type A or something like that. They aren't a bad group, just need to not take them too seriously.
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Galileo, I have also gone through great loss for intellectual freedom from spiritual bondage. I agree that it has payed back more, and I am just getting started. You said you have faith in human potential. I like that. Very hard for me right now, but a good goal.
LockedChoas, putting faith in me is incredibly hard. That is probably the most difficult part of this process for me. I understand, and I wish you the best.
lonelysheep, I like your simple approach. Faith to me at this point means hoping in something that isn't manifested. I want to hope, I want to have faith, always.
hillary_step, I agree. I am working towards adapting the perspective of living for now. A lifetime of living for tomorrows is hard to break. I want to use my hope in tomorrows to make my days more meaningful. Giving up hope doesn't seem right, neither does living for it. Obviously, I'm not there yet.
Terry, I don't agree with everything you said, but you did hit the mark with me a couple of times.
When faith takes over as your purpose in life you pass from having a life to wishing for a make-believe one.
With make-believe you can have things any way you want--IN YOUR HEAD. But, you can't stay inside your own head.
There is a real world. The more Faith and Belief and such take over your consciousness, the less competent you become at living in the real world and seeing things as they really are.
in these few words you capsulized what is wrong with my life.
THE HARDEST PART of getting well (in the psychological sense) is LETTING GO of that dreamy illusion of a dream world just up ahead that never gets here.
it is hard, btw
Replace make-believe thinking with data. Learn epistemology (in Philosophy). Get yourself a new toolbox.
no way, but I will consider real life as a replacement. Also not ready to give up completely on hopes and dreams, just need to get them in perspective which isn't looking good right now. Epistemology.....???.....really?
oompa, this world holds such beauty, to think of a designer makes sense. Then the questions begin to flow. Back to "blender head".
changeling, faith seems to be a tool at this time in my life rather than a religious term. I just don't know how to use it. Or, I am afraid too.