Every time I read this stuff in the bible even as a witness I thought how could a creator be so cruel, and sometimes would ask others what they thought. I realized that other people were concerned about it too, but JW's always put a more interesting spin because they had to believe what the bible said. I know I wasn't the only one bugged about the idea that God was willing to wipe out all of human kind and just save JW's.
When I went to a Unitarian Church I found they didn't believe literally in the bible, which was so different. They had spirituality without necessarily declaring any particular religious path the one and only. I began to look at the bible from a different perspective. Events where people were affected by floods, plagues, disasters and how humans attributed these events to God. Either God was angry, or God was punishing, or God was giving victory. Human perspectives to explain what they thought were divine judgments that were nothing more than events that science can explain now days.
There is nothing divine about human stories trying to explain what their God is all about. Especially where there is no compelling prove that God did anything in particular. These events were written sometimes hundreds of years of story telling. I know it shocking to wake up from the JW brain washing and suddenly having to be able to think about all this. But it is good you are.
Ruth