What made you feel that way? Were you intimidated in some way? Can you define it?
Probably a lot of factors went into it. Here I was, just a 20-something nobody who had hastily and naively converted to JWism and was never totally on board with it after the first year or so, with little education, wearing a cheap suit, and barely making enough to afford a one bedroom apartment furnished with hand-me-down furniture, peddling religious publications that I was frankly embarrassed of to people that had done all the right things in life - got college degrees, got married, had kids, had full lives. The awareness of just what an incredible loser I was crushed down on me hardest when I was out in field circus, and all the more so when working in Big Winner territory.