Well....I guess this was the WT my wife was studying yesterday as she decided that she'd ratchet up the pressure on me to return to meetings.
I finally had to rip off the bandaid. I told her I just don't believe in any of it anymore.
From there, she stopped speaking to me and was storming about the house.
We'll see what today brings. I just refuse to live my life with a constant cloud of fear hanging over my head, and guilt that if I'm not doing "just so JW style", then something is obviously wrong with me!