I see how you act, Grace. You don't have to be an ex-elder for that opinion. You don't have to be an exjw, either. I think you do care if people like you. It's only natural, normal. And you seem pretty normal.
"I hate to be where I am not wanted" was what you said when Renaia (sp) hurt your feelings. You even made a thread asking us if we felt you shouldn't stay here.