Yes, AllTimeJeff, you and I are in complete harmony about the responsibility of the GB. I agree with Ray Franz when he pointed out somewhere in one of his excellent books that the leaders believe the lies that were passed on to them and also believe their own lies (I don't have the quote at hand, hence, my words. If I've got the quote wrong, then I agree with my own words.) However, that is no excuse. When you accept a GB position and become part of a group of men that enforce harmful policies (whether you know they are harmful or not), you become responsible for that harm. We all know that. It's been discussed many times on this board especially with regard to Hitler and associates.
As much as I enjoyed being around Lloyd Barry, Jack Barr and Dan Sidlik, I had occasion to see complete change in their demeanor if they thought that I or others had overstepped a rule. I can only imagine what would have happened if I had occasion to be critical of a doctrine, etc. or sounded a bit "apostate." From what I was told, the only GB member who had real empathy for Ray Franz was Swingle and he tried, to no avail, to stop the steam roller that was about to run over Ray. Lloyd Barry was hard as nails and turned on Ray; and, of course, Ted Jaracz was in full control of the drving of the steam roller. Dan Sidlik ran for cover because he had skeletons in his closet. Jack Barr just went along with Lloyd.
Harry Peloyan and I talked just about everything and I heard from his own lips what he didn't agree with, but I saw twice what happened to his disposition when I crossed a boundary that he thought I shouldn't have. For example: I saw that the number of publishers, peak publishers and baptized in each KM just didn't make sense if you added the numbers up month by month. I brought this to his attention and it was like I had unleashed a small volcano. His face turned red; his fists clenched till the fingers became purple. He told me angrily, in essence, to forget about it; it was not my affair.
Another time we had a disagreement about contraception. In this case he was right and I was wrong. I wanted the sisters to know that taking a certain type of birth control pill caused abortion. Please don't ask me any questions because I can't remember much about this ( I know I was reading a medical article that enlightened me on the subject), just that he became angry at me. Wow, did I cross the line. He said the poor sisters had enough to worry about in this organization than for us to put another burden on them. Of course he was right. I was looking at it from the angle of a very dedicated Christian woman who did not want to break God's law on taking a life. To me, back then, there were few gray areas--JWs were against abortion and God would get me if I didn't get the message out.
I knew that if I continued on to press for anything he was not in agreement with, I would have been transferred into the laundry area to count hangers.
Harry was always very complimentary about my contributions to the organization, but when I went public about child abuse, he was very angry, calling me a Judas. I bet if he could have gotten a hold of me, I would have been dog food!
What I'm trying to say is this and hope I'm being clear: No matter how nice or sincere JW leaders are, they would do harm (if they could get away with it) to anybody who crosses a certain line, a line outlined and imposed by them, to a member who questions "mother's" right to rule!
Familiar, huh? Catholic Church, Calvin, Puritans, etc.
We all know the saying about how power corrupts...
Barb