Well now I know why you call yourself mouthy, though hairdryer might be more appropriate and I mean that most lovingly. There is obviously much about each other that we don't know or indeed share on this forum. but I do maintain my point of view. I was dragged into a cemetery when I was nine by a pedophile. Abuse is abuse and damage is damage in or out of the organisation. Believe me I know what fear tastes like.
The experiences we all have within our lives are going to differ but the outcome is going to be the same, we are all capable of looking ourselves in the eye and living for today and tomorrow without fear, hatred or anger. it does take some doing sometimes and an inner strength to realise what we cant change and to manipulate what we can. I am very sorry about the circumstances with your daughter and thankfully my daughter and I are close. I did accept that if she had chosen the organisation, then I would have to get on with my life. That is the choice I could affect as can you. I believe our human time is just that, a time to be human. I also believe in a higher experience of eternity and enlightenment that is untouchable by the organisation or any other pollutant.
I wish you every success in healing the obvious pain you are in x