Is there a part of you eating away from the inside wishing you could show the world who you are and what you found out?

by StoneWall 19 Replies latest jw friends

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  wobble

  Well put Satanus, I thought I was like that, until a self-righteous ,falsely accusing letter turned up from my Nephew, a born in JW,he serves as WT conductor at present.

  I penned a reply to him,but havn't sent it yet,not sure if I will, it may make the smelly stuff hit the fan, whereas at present my fade is going well.

  It is just so difficult when they look down on you,and I know that what I have done,leaving after 58 years, is more worthy than all his priggish works.

  It is a problem too,when talking to old friends I meet from the Congo. I was in,sometimes I say too much,one day they are going to try and DF me I guess.

  Love

  Wobble
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  free2think

  nope not anymore. But I have taken up a resisting stance and backed it up with action.

  ql
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  StAnn

  I used to care until I learned that no one in the Borg would listen and no one outside of the Borg cared.

  I've finally faced the truth and written off all JW's from my past, including relatives. If they ever leave the Borg, I'll be here for them. Otherwise, I'm leaving them to live their own lives unmolested. I can't control their wagging tongues so I just avoid them.

  However, I am working on a book that will be published upon my parents' death. It is cathartic.

  St. Ann
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  The Berean

  If there is, it is totally understandable. Many of us were programmed to feel obligated like Jeremiah of the Bible to have a "fire in the belly" when it comes to sharing belief and condemning others. That tendency remains far beyond association with the group and goes away when one realizes no power has sent them here on a special mission.
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  wobble

  Good to hear Mary's plan regarding info for the medics. In the U.K we have a body attached to the Royal College which deals with Medical Ethics, if you have a similar body in the USA, it may be an idea to send them a copy.

  I think we all need to find some action that is cathartic, especially if we are ham-strung by not really wanting to be DF'd or DA'd, and so are unable to really vent.

  Love

  Wobble
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  BluesBrother

  until I learned that no one in the Borg would listen

  But WE listened...We took note and had the guts to stop doing it...I believe most have already figured it out before they come on the net seeking confirmation of their deep suspicions about The Borg. But my point is that there must be some to truth matters.

  Yes, in answer to the original question...I hate being a closet apostate. I want to shout out from the rooftops..I would love to prepare some simple notes and hand them out, especially to the young ones...

  Why don't I? ...Family ties, fear of a divorce , the cutting off from all who are dear to me.....
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  leavingwt

  I used to care until I learned that no one in the Borg would listen and no one outside of the Borg cared.

  Bingo!
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  fokyc

  Y ES! YES! YES!

  But with an active JW wife life is difficult to say the least,

  then there are the lying elders!!!!!! Oh ****!

  fokyc
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  jamiebowers

  No, but I've been df'd for a long time and can say anything I want to everyone who will listen. I can't imagine what it's like to be trapped inside the cult. It would be impossible for me, because I'd blow up if I couldn't bitch!
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  truthsetsonefree

  (Jeremiah

  20:9)9 And I said: “I am not going to make mention of him, and I shall speak no more in his name.” And in my heart it proved to be like a burning fire shut up in my bones; and I got tired of holding in, and I was unable [to endure it]. . .