That is what i did the first 45 years of my life. Because i was born in...fourth generation...i really did not have much of a choice since i tried to be a good son....my doubts started at 19, but i had been bad enough in high school that i became a pioneer for a year and a half as a form of penance to my parents....soon thereafter, wife and kids and job became a big distraction....and life just happened as it does to must born in dubs.......
now that i am out i realize that ALL of what i was and did and spewed at doors....was actually accepted by me from TOTAL STRANGERS!!!.......that i had never even met!!!!........how nuts is that?!?!?.........every freakin meeting and most prayers mention this spooky sounding "faithful and discreet slave (class)".....yet it is never personalized much.....as in who the hell are these guys (the governing body) that have sooooo much influence over your entire life....starting as kids and by adulthood you are on autopilot to accept what these "strangers" say.....and you know not to question...you just do....
so you are walking down the street and a guy says...."you must go to XYZ and you must say 123...and you can ask no questions about me as to why you must do this...and never express you own real opinions if they differ from anything i ever tell you"......
well at LEAST YOU GET TO TALK TO THAT GUY AND MEET HIM!!!!!.....geeze so few dubs ever even meet the GB...much less really get to know them....yet...you do what they tell you in print and in talks not even given by them....and funny...but you dont even know if "they" even wrote the stuff...or even thought of the stuff...............talk about faith.....it is faith in TOTAL STRANGERS!!!!.....now THAT is strange ...............oompa
curious if this matters to any fence sitters out there.....hope so