Spike... get a hold of yourself!
Telling yourself that you are not doing something wrong when you've been taught that not doing something is wrong even when it is not actually wrong, is not 'self-denial'. It is the truth and you are attempting to undue a lie that has been driven into your psyche ever since joining the cult. Not attending a JW meeting is not committing a sin.
Further, you have added the word 'devotion' where it totally does not exist in my previous post. I said nothing about 'devoting' nor 'putting trust in nobles'. At a 'country' or 'national' level, you can help people. I work with people who do this.