I was a model JW woman who came into it the JW's with my husband back in 1972 and by 1975 my husband was an Elder. We lived in a way very conscious of being a good example of how we spoke and how we behaved. My husband when he took a spill and fell in love with a sister and left the witnesses and was disf'ed for a few years I stuck by him because I was told he was a good man just weak.
I stuck it out as a JW for 29 years through many difficult years and Elders often sent weak ones my way for encouragement. Yes I did all the listening but no one ever listened to me, but that was my fault I didn't reveal how I'd come to doubt or believe that the JW God wanted all his followers to suffer constantly. When I left after 29 years and left my so called good JW husband the congregation realed with shock. I know from others it caused a lot of ripples at the time but now its been 8 years and my name is rarely mentioned now.
I believed fervently in what the JW's taught and I believed that the faithful discreet slave was being directed by God. When began to question the wisdom of the organization and the Elders it all began to shed its fake front. When my middle son died and the congregation glorified us and my son for refusing blood I lost all respect for it all.