razorMind,
Glad to have you here on the board.
I can relate to everything you said about education.
I was born a j-dub too and although I did good in school, I also went throughout school with no drive and no encouragement and just drifted because of the teachings of the borg about college, armageddon etc.
I'm 40 years old but didn't realize the org was a scam until I was 38.
Never went to college. And I could have been and done a lot more for myself if I had gone.
I want to say that I also feel the pain of a lot of wasted years.
Its not easy. but I am going to go back to college to get my degree.
As one poster mentioned above, "Its never too late"
For example, I went to my nieces graduation from Broome College in Binghamton NY last year and there were men and women graduatiing who were in their 40's 50's, and 60's.
This really encouraged me.I hope this encourages you too.
Also the main speaker made an excellent point which all of us ex-dubs already appreciate.
He was not a witness or an ex-dub but he said this in his speech to the graduating students: "What you do in your life is not between you and an organization. Its between you and your God."
Personally I thought this was the best "Talk" I had ever heard.
Hopefully this will be of encouragement for you to continue your desire to display your talents.
This is one of the best ways to show that the WT is a scam.
worf