WELCOME !!!!!!
I sympathise with your screen name, in my case it was 58 wasted years ! there are a variety of emotions that affect you as you leave,anger,fear (where shall we go ?), feeling foolish ,as nugget said, and a desire to tell all what you have found out.
Caution is the order of the day, it is a bit like a bereavement, you have to let it take it's course, and you are wise to do so, before making ANY major moves or decisions.
A number on here have regretted bringing about their DF'ing when they could have faded, for example.
So seek advice on here on how to get to where you want to get to, and take things as slowly as you can.
Welcome to FREEDOM !
Love
Wobble