What would you do if someone found your copy of of Crisis of Conscience?
Do not meet with elders. When a family member presents the book to you, dance around their questions if you think they are going to turn you in.
"What's that?" "Did you read it?" "You ask where I got it from. I never said it was mine." "No, I will not admit to buying or reading it. Feel free to look at it to see what it is." Even if they clearly know it's yours, you never actually said it, so you can continue to "dance."
Sure, it is reasonable evidence. But it is not ironclad evidence. Keep up the smoke screen. If your relative turns you in, continue to refuse to meet with elders and be very upset whenever they talk about it: "My brother found some book and you guys want to grill me about the book that HE found like the Spanish Inquisition. I have done nothing wrong. No, I will not meet with you since I just stated what I know."
What would you say if an elder confronted you after the meeting with printouts of your postings here and asked if you had indeed written them?
Get out the smoke screen. "What are these? Let me see them." "I am not familiar with what you have here." "Have I posted to a website about Jehovah's Witnesses? Are you accusing me of something? I don't even know what you are talking about."
Refuse to meet with two of them by getting all upset when initially presented with evidence. We are talking about Theocratic warfare, so a bit of misleading can be done without actually lying- Insist on seeing the the printouts and say that you did not "write" these. (You did not write his printouts.) If they ask directly if you are a member of some website, just answer with questions and confusion: "What website?" "What are you talking about?" Stick to that even if he insists on a YES or NO answer. He is not an appointed judge of some court of law. He cannot insist and compel you to obey.
What if a suspicious relative came right out and asked you, "Do you still believe that this is the truth?"
If you think it will lead to them turning you in, admit that you have questions or doubts. Admit no more. As above, they are not a judge in a court of law. I like to answer with questions:
"I am concerned about what part of it is 'the truth.' Was it the truth that the generation of 1914 would not all die before the end arrived? Was it true that the literature used to say that it was the "Creator's Promise" that such a generation would not all die before the end? Was it true that Jehovah's Witnesses used to tell members to refuse organ transplants and vaccinations and will they eventually allow blood transfusions?"
Stick with whatever is your passion. I might ask if it is true that they sent older members home from Bethel service after decades of faithful service. It's not something you expect answers from- it's just a smoke screen and a way to be honest with a relative at the same time.
If you faced a judicial committee, whether for apostasy or something else, would you fight the charges, fake repentance, or just let them disfellowship you?
When they are investigating the possibility of having a JC, I would ask to see their evidence. I might agree to initially meet with the committee just to say I am not here to confess to anything. "I
